I have to write about this because it’s been bothering me for a long time. I have gone back and forth so much; should I say something or not. But it haunts me at night, so I will write.
The December issue of 5280 featured a lengthy story about me that was filled with lies. I did my job as a police officer and saved people from a gunman. The media then catapults me into the spotlight and thus the lies begin.
The reason I decided to let this writer from 5280 do a story on me is because he said he would help me “clear my name” and help me get a “fresh start” here in Colorado-from all the nasty untruths that have been written about me since the shooting in 2007. Who would that proposal not appeal to? I am all about integrity. I am not a liar. And to be accused of such horrific things traumatizes my soul.
This blows my mind. I even had the writer contact my former attorney from Minneapolis so my attorney could verify what I’ve said all along; I never lied during any investigation and should never have been fired. My attorney not only verified this, but told the 5280 writer how disgusted he was with how the Minneapolis Police officials lied so blatantly about me during my trial. My attorney said after my case, he refused to represent all other Minneapolis Police Officer cases because of the rampant corruption in the department administration.
Robert Sanchez, you are a betrayer of the worst kind. You not only wrote in your story that I lied when you knew for a fact I didn’t, but then you had to take it a step further and say that the videotape of the incident on the bus (where I allegedly called a city bus driver an a**hole) proved that I lied when in fact that video proved quite clearly that I did not. You didn’t give me a fresh start with your story. You didn’t help clear my name. Your book of lies ended all hope of my ever being back in uniform again. I still wonder as I write what motivated you to further destroy my reputation. I pray to God that no man ever betrays your daughter like you betrayed me.
I’m writing this blog now because of the former L.A. Police Officer who is on this killing rampage. While I clearly understand his pain and frustration with being fired and having false reports written about him, I find it beyond tragic that he’s now made his life even worse by feeling the need to end others. I also feel badly for the innocent people who were killed, but I know how police departments can be. All it takes is a couple of ranking officers to start the lies and you’re gone. I know many who have suffered the same fate as me and have no doubt the former L.A. cop was also lied about.
I was recently interviewed by several news stations, including CNN, where I was able to say the truth about my own incident in Dec. 2007. I was not some private, armed citizen as many gun rights advocates have tried to portray me. I was a well-trained police officer. And the gunman did not kill himself. I was forced to kill him. Don’t ever tell an officer who is forced to end someone’s life that that person killed himself. You have no idea what kind of damage you can cause the officer. I know what I did, I was there, not any of you or the media, and I am the one who has to deal with it. And neither do any of you know of emerging details as to why the church officials would lie about this incident. Trust me, the truth always comes out and it will in my case as well.
I am sick of all the lies. Not just the lies I’ve suffered from, but for the lies of other good people I know. These lies have cost us our livelihoods as well as our reputations. I am obviously very good at what I do as a police officer, yet the many agencies I have applied for won’t even background me to actually see if the gossip they’ve heard or read about me online is even true. Your loss, not mine.
For any of you, especially on a police force who have also lost your job because of the pettiness of ranking officers, please know my heart goes out to all of you, as it does to this L.A. cop. I absolutely do not condone his behavior in any way, shape or form, but I feel his pain as I know many of you do.
My hope and prayer is that he gives himself up now without further bloodshed, including his own. For any of you who are saying he deserves to die, you are wrong.
No one, not even him, deserves to die. And no one deserves to be lied about.